[Dexter Morgan ,
Dexter, S02E12, “The British Invasion” (2007),
Director: Steve Shill,
Writers: James Manos Jr., Jeff Lindsay, Daniel Cerone and Melissa Rosenberg]
I have tried to write this particular post since I have started the blog. The quote jumped out of the when I watched the show and have stuck with me. Like Dexter Morgan, I have wondered if this is how parents really feel. I guess the reason I couldn’t have written this note is because I hadn’t known. Until seven weeks ago.
My own creation (referred to as Upload in-utero and, appropriately, Download since) has arrived after the stormy V-Day weekend. He’s currently in the playpen, taking the mid-morning nap, farting up a storm, looking, depending on who you ask, just like his dad or just like me. Either way, he is cute like a baby, with my nose and his dad’s eyebrows. He hasn’t figured much about life yet, except maybe that someone always comes when he cries and plays the guessing game of “What is bothering Little Download”.
So, to answer your question, Mr. Morgan, it is strange to have a creation out there. Although you probably already know that. It is bizarre, because suddenly you realize, you, in a way, have multiplied. And yet, you have no control over that multiplication. The half of you inside this individual exists scattered all over the surface and in the form of deeply hiddent truths. The only control you have is the one in guiding it through the world and setting up boundaries within which it can shape itself out. Additionally, something that for nine months has been an internal part of me (although with its own … well … everything) is now a separated living thing, kicking his little legs and waving his arms. Strange, really, doesn’t even begin to cover it. It is zonky, it is mondo bizarre, it is almost outre. Yet as rum as it is, it feels like it has never been any different. Seven weeks have stretched behind their times, proving relativity in everything.
Through the series I have hoped for the writers to revisit the statement, especially when Harrison came around. If they have, I missed it. If they haven’t, I think they lost an opportunity there. The monologue was such an internal part of the show (and I get silence at the end, I really do!) and Dexter’s own creation deserved at least a line of recognition and one with a prospect of not messing everything up.